So, he told you that he loves you. Maybe even more than once, but for some reason you are asking yourself: Does he really love me or is he just blowing smoke...? Whether you've asked a friend or you kept it to yourself, you wouldn't be the first person to ask that question."I love you" just doesn't have the same weight that it used to. Nowadays, it's thrown and kicked around like a bean bag ball at a picnic. Let's face it, not everyone is sincere when they use those words. Some have learned to use those words as a way to get what they want. Some have even learned to use it as a form of control. When you say I love you, it is supposed to mean that you are giving your heart and love to someone, not to take from them for your own selfish needs / pleasures. I don't care what anyone says, love is not supposed to hurt. So, how do you know when someone really loves you? It is a valid question that we may have, not only for spouses and or lovers, but maybe even our friends which might have given us a reason to doubt their sincerity. The answer to the question is quite simple in my opinion and to tell you the truth, we already know the answer within ourselves before we dare ask the question, don't we? Our intuition will nudge us and give us clues that something isn't quite right. Sometimes we ignore it, until we finally have no choice but to ask the question and face the answer. And even then, our bleeding hearts still demand proof! So, where do we get the proof? No, we don't search his pockets or phone records and text messages. The proof is in the fruit. It is said that " A good tree cannot bear bad fruit." Which means, pay attention to the person's actions to see if those actions match with his/her words. If a man tells you he loves you, but puts you in a situation where you have to compromise your self-respect, beliefs or morals, do those actions match with love? No! If a man cheats on you or with you, calls you names or abuses you in any way, do those actions match with love? Absolutely not! See how simple that is? When a man loves you he will respect and honor you. He will never do anything intentionally to hurt you because it would cause him pain to know that he hurt you. If he truly loves you, then his actions would reflect those three words, not contradict them. If he loves you, he would work to multiply your smiles instead of multiplying your tears. If he loves you, then you wouldn't have the need to ask that question, because you'd already know the answer, whether he told you I love you or not. So, there you have it! Satisfied, or do you still need more proof?
Women! We are a unique species. We range on the spectrum of colors from black to white, with many shades in between. We vary in size, height, language, ethnicity, talent, achievement and the list goes on. No two women are alike. However, one of the most perplexing commonalities that we women share is that we often don't recognize our own beauty. We women can be so very hard on ourselves at times. We worry unnecessarily about everything. If you were to assemble a group of women in the same room and start a discussion centered on fitness or body image; I guarantee that every woman there, will come up with a list of at least five things that they dislike about themselves. Why do we do that to ourselves? Have you ever gotten a compliment but instead of receiving it and saying thank you, you said something like: Oh no, I need to lose 20 pounds. Or oh no, can't you see that blemish right there? Have you ever thought about what must be going through the mind of the person who gave you the compliment? Think about it and then answer this honestly: Have you ever compared yourself to other women, wishing you looked like them or had something they had, whether it was their hair, skin, legs,height, size...etc? I think we've all been guilty of it at one time or another in our lives, whether we'd like to admit it or not. Of course we all know that the media has a lot to do with it. Everything is centered around superficial beauty, hyper-sexuality and materialism. God help our daughters who are growing up in a time when the less clothing worn the better and the ability to twerk and/or shake your butt, is the norm. However, that's another blog topic for another day. The point I'm trying to make is this. Forget about the images on TV, the internet and magazines. Forget about the women next door or at work, or in the subway. While there is nothing wrong with admiring the beauty of other women, we as women should start to celebrate who we are as individuals. Not just the image we see in the mirror, but every aspect of ourselves. We are works of art, unique and wonderfully made. I assure you that just as you may have wished to look like someone else or to have something else that another woman possesses, another woman is looking at you the same way. She is wishing to have what you have or to look like you. Most of us don't realize that because we are busy complaining about our flaws or we're just too blind to notice how truly beautiful we are. So start paying attention and celebrate your own beauty! While your at it, celebrate your life and the blessings in it. Appreciate everything about you inside and out, flaws, challenges, experiences too. For they have made you into the individual you are. All of our days are numbered and you don't want to reach near the end and then realize as you look back on photos of yourself, how truly beautiful you were and how foolish you were not to realize it.
Do you remember what it was like to be told you couldn't have something or you couldn't do something as a child? Maybe it was sweets, toys, the freedom to play with friends? Do you remember thinking... I can't wait until I get older, so I can do what I want? Do you remember the pleasure that came from finally being able to have what you wanted? Did you overdo it or were you able to indulge without going too far? For some of us, being deprived of certain things may have caused us to indulge a little too much as we got older. Some of us can't resist sweets and/or fast foods and now it shows in our weight. Some of us shop too much or buy too many toys, like electronics and cars, whether we have the money or not. Then you have those of us who were deprived of love and affection. These are the individuals who may have the most difficult struggle as they tend to over-indulge their inner-child in a very different way. For their pleasure is found in the attention, love and or validation given to them by others. This is a delicate subject as no two people are alike and there are of course always exceptions to every rule. A mental health professional once told me "An emotionally deprived child will never be satisfied". She further explained that such a child will grow up desperately looking to find what he/she never had. Only they will never find it. It saddened me to hear that, because I imagined a hopeless future for many young children who will or have grown into adults desperately trying to fill a bottomless void. Throughout my life and in my current occupation, I meet many such individuals. Just as she described, they are running from relationship to relationship trying to find that person who will complete them and restore their fractured hearts. Some of them are on auto-pilot and aren't even aware of what they are looking for. Some have resigned to the momentary pleasure of casual encounters, multiple partners and maybe even an addiction to pornography. On the outside they appear to be happy, but deep inside they are terribly sad. For despite their many attempts to satisfy their inner-child with over-indulgence, they fail. So what does one such individual do? Inner healing must take place before healthy relationships can be maintained with others. I personally don't accept what the mental health professional said, as I ascribe to a Higher Power. I personally have experienced great change and healing through a personal relationship with God. However, for those who don't share my beliefs, I would love to hear your opinions and or solutions, as this is a place to share for the benefit of others.
Have you ever tried and tried to use your willpower to help you overcome something or to quit something? You found yourself trying over and over again, and you told yourself: This time I will do it for sure! Or, this time is the last time...but it wasn't? Perhaps you are trying to quit smoking, end a relationship, or even start one? Perhaps you have an addiction to food, drugs or alcohol? Or maybe you are depressed and you can't seem to will yourself into happiness? I don't know about you, but my willpower has failed me time and time again...even now! I long to get in better physical shape and to have a healthier lifestyle, but no matter how uncomfortable or dissatisfied I am with the way things are and no matter how many times I talk myself into a frenzy, swearing that I'll make a change...I do nothing! My willpower simply is not strong enough to do the job. However, as I reflect back to when I made the most lasting and positive changes in my life, I realized something. I realized that I didn't use willpower in those instances. I used prayer instead. I know... most people hear about prayer and they run for the hills. Maybe that's because they think to pray is laborious and that you have to pull out a list of impressive vocabulary words. Or maybe some feel like you have to be a perfect religious person in order to pray. NOT! I used to think that way too. First of all, simple is always best. There's no need to try to impress anyone and you don't have to be religious or perfect. NO ONE IS PERFECT...and I'm not just saying that to make you feel better. It even says that in the bible. Anyway, just have a conversation about what you're going through and ask for help. I find that thanking God for the blessings I already have is a good way to start. Prayer has helped me out of some really big battles. For example: I was really depressed for years and no matter what I did I couldn't snap out of it. It's only when I prayed about it and believed that things would change, that it finally did. It was much simpler and less exhausting...not to mention effective. As I write this, I am informing you but also reminding myself as well. As there are several areas in my life that I need to and will apply this to. The bottom line is that some battles require a little spiritual help and there's no shame in that. It's like asking your parent who would do anything for you, to help. There's a reason why 12-step programs start off with the Serenity Prayer. Willpower is great, but sometimes it just isn't enough. So, what will you do the next time your willpower fails you? Will you give up and throw in the towel? Will you keep trying even though you keep getting the same results? Or will you try something new? As for me, I know what I need to do.
Have you ever been in a relationship that literally sucked the life out of you? Maybe there's too much arguing and/or name calling going on; maybe he hits you; maybe you're the one with all of the financial responsibility or perhaps he is repeatedly and/or blatantly unfaithful? Perhaps you are the one he is unfaithful with. Perhaps he misuses alcohol or drugs...and you have to rescue him. Clearly I can go on, but I'm sure you get the point. Does any one or more of these scenarios ring a bell? Do you have more to add to the list? If your answer is yes, then you couldn't possibly be happy...right? So why are you sticking around? There is no black and white answer here, because relationships can be very complex. People remain in relationships that are dysfunctional for reasons that make sense to them. However, why would you want to remain in a relationship that is killing you? What are you getting out of it? Who will you become after your life and love has been depleted? Will you have anything left over for yourself? Love does not drain or destroy, it nurtures and promotes growth. A loving relationship is supposed to make both parties better and stronger as opposed to one suffering at the hand of another. So... what do you do? This is a touchy area, as we as individuals don't like to be told what to do. Friends and Family can talk to you until they're blue in the face and it wouldn't matter right? I know, I've been there. However, I will leave you with this. At night, just after your head rests on your pillow, pay attention to what your gut is telling you. There lies the truth... a truth that even you can't deny. What happens after that, is entirely up to you.
Doubt is one of the most powerful tools of defeat in my opinion. Doubt is like a seed implanted in your mind, and the more you nurture it, the bigger and more expansive it will grow until it has control of your life. How many of us have failed to act because of those two little words...what if? What is it about the fear of the unknown that keeps us bound to familiarity even if familiarity is killing us? Why do we fail to act when we already know that the present circumstance is not what's best for us? Sometimes what stands between us and a better and/or happier version of ourselves is nothing at all. Nothing except for us, because most of the time, we are the only things standing in our own way! We sometimes create these scary scenarios in our minds that make the possibility of change seem laborious, frightening and even impossible. Have you ever done that? For example: "If I leave him, I won't find anyone else to love me. If I get up and sing...they will laugh at me. If I go back to school...I'll fail. If I try to lose weight, I'll give in just like the other 10 times. If I ask her out...she'll reject me. If I leave this job...I won't find a better one" The list can go on and on. We all at some point have given in or have been bound by doubt whether it was momentary or for many years. I've learned over the years that most of the time when I did decide to act, it was much easier than I thought and the outcome was far better than I could have ever imagined. So what if...today was the day that you got out of that toxic relationship that was killing you? What if today was the day you took a chance on your future by going back to school or getting a better job? What if today is the day you ask that girl or guy out? What if today is the day you decide to get in shape and live a healthier lifestyle? What if today is the day you stop self-medicating and deal with what is really bothering you? What if today is the day you say you're sorry? What if today is your day?
My brother once told me that feelings are important because they're an indicator. They let you know what's going on within as well as externally. They will tell you when you're hungry, sad, angry, afraid, happy, aroused, in love...and the list goes on. I totally agree with him on that. Feelings are very important, for what would life be without them. The point of life is to live it and in order to live it, you must feel; otherwise we'd be dead. However, what I want to explore a little more is: How do we know when our feelings are leading us in the wrong direction? Clearly we aren't talking about the obvious here, such as committing crimes and anything dangerous. I'm talking about more subtle things that can amass into huge dilemmas/problems like getting into a relationship with someone because you feel lonely, or sleeping with a married man/woman because it feels right or feels like love. Do those feelings justify the actions? Or how about something as simple as eating or drinking alcohol? What happens when the taste is so sweet and the feelings are so enjoyable that we can't stop ourselves even when the mirror or those around us tell us we've gone way too far? Does there come a point where our minds step in and call the shots before it's too late? It almost seems like a rhetorical question right? As I'm sure many of you will answer within yourself: Of course the mind has to step in and take control! Well, if it were that simple, then why are so many people (not unlike myself) still allowing their feelings to make poor decisions that affect their lives and health for the worse? Perhaps the question is not can we trust our feelings..maybe the question should be: How do we walk in the other direction when we know our feelings are leading us into a place we don't belong? Maybe if we can figure out the answer to that, then perhaps we can avoid a lot of damage before it's done. For sometimes, the damage caused by following our feelings is irreparable. Any thoughts?
Many people don't like the word prostitution, but it's been around for a very long time. Prostitution is defined as: The practice or occupation of engaging in sexual activity with someone for payment. Now that we understand the meaning, allow me to present my case. I have overheard and talked to both women and men about this issue and there appears to be an unspoken understanding between the two.
Here is what one man said: Nowadays, women only want money. They want their bills paid, nails and hair done; otherwise they won't sleep with you. We men know that, so we put some money aside just for that purpose. The woman feels good because she feels like she did something great to get us to give up the money. But the reality is, it's just a part of the game and you play until you are ready to get rid of her. She's not the type of woman you keep. She probably does this to every guy and sees more than one guy at the same time anyway. Here is what one woman said: I don't give a man sex if he doesn't give me money. I don't have time to waste with these fools, my bills need to be paid. If he can't do it then another man will. Yes, I deal with more than one person at once. These guys out here are stupid. They only serve one purpose.
So here are my questions: If these two individuals got together, would that be a form of prostitution? If not, then what is it? Neither of the two conversations ever touched upon the subject of love or companionship. So...is love, romance and marriage an antiquated notion these days? If a man can easily pay a woman for sex, what does that mean for single women who are looking for the real deal? If a woman is only looking for money, then what does it mean for a man who is looking for real love? I guess my final point is this: At the end of the day, when a person engages in such a transaction, is he/she satisfied? Is sex and money so important that love no longer matters? What do you think?
We've all heard about Daddy issues, when it comes to women who date older men or a man of any age who has a paternal role instead of the role of a companion. Is this one of the symptoms that Fatherless Daughters face as they grow up and set out to find their mates? The importance of a father in a little's girls life is something that can't be substituted. While there are many single mothers (not unlike myself) out there that do a great job raising their daughter's alone; a mother can never be a father. A father is the standard that a daughter uses to choose her mate. A father sets the standard high, and thus the daughter won't settle for less than that standard. A daughter learns about how a woman should be treated by the way her father treats her mother. A father teaches his daughter about boys, because his insight about boys comes from prior experience. Obviously this is the best case scenario and of course it doesn't always work out this way. There are many instances such as Domestic Violence...etc, where the absence of the father is appropriate. However, the point I'm making is that it is important for a father to be involved so that there is a point of reference. When there is no father present, a fatherless daughter may seek him out in the arms of others. This need to fill the void and the absence of a point of reference can lead to a string of bad decisions. For she will search in vain, never finding what she seeks. There are many exceptions, but there are far more fatherless daughters out there aimlessly looking for love in all the wrong places. What say you?
Are all men cheaters? Is it a biological imperative that a man must be with more than one woman at the same time? Last night I began to reflect on a conversation I once had with a male, (married) colleague. He told me that men were designed differently than women and that monogamy was unnatural for men. He also tried to convince me that love is a fluid term which is not tattooed onto one specific person. That is to say that, he could love his wife, but he could also love Sarah, Jenny and whoever else. Our conversation turned into a heated debate of which I will leave to your imaginations. However, the one point that I most wanted to convey was this: To cheat is a decision to be deceitful. It is not an issue about nature. Why get married if you know you will cheat? Why not get divorced before starting something new? If it is a part of nature for men to be with more than one woman, then why the need to hide, lie and hurt others? Why not be honest to all the parties involved? What are your thoughts?
Why is it that some friends are givers and some are takers? Is that the norm or should friendships be reciprocal? Have you ever had a friend who took everything from you a friendship has to offer like your trust, your time, your unconditional love and support; yet they did not reciprocate? How does it feel to know when you are really in need of a true friend you are unable to find that same level of friendship that you gave freely without thinking twice? A discovery like that can yield a different kind of heartache. With lovers, your guard is naturally up to a degree because there is a level of risk that is expected. However with close friends, you tend to be more relaxed. Your guard is down so the wound comes swiftly and runs deep. So what do you do when you make such a discovery? Do you remind the friend of all that you have been to them or do you just lick your wounds and protect yourself better next time? So..what kind of friend are you...a giver or a taker?
My first book Within the Mask was all about revealing the person I was hiding on the inside... within a figurative mask that I wore for the world. The person I portrayed to the world was far different from who I was on the inside. On the outside I appeared attractive, strong, fearless, and happy. However, on the inside I felt ugly, weak, fearful and depressed. Although that time now seems far off...I remember how isolated and fake I felt. It was exhausting!! I remember little ways that I rebelled in order to feel like I had some control; most of which only hurt me in the end.
I've recently encountered several young people who reminded me of this time in my life. On the outside they were courteous, and each time I asked one of them what was wrong...the answer was nothing, I'm fine with a contrived smile.They all wore the same mask. However as I looked deep into their eyes, I could see the turmoil, pain and the helplessness they were hiding. When I examined their personal lives, I saw the acts of rebellion that signaled that there was something deeper going on. Baggage! Filled with mental illness, domestic and environmental issues, peer and educational pressures, puberty, and sexuality...etc. They have all of this baggage weighing them down, causing them to feel isolated and most of all affecting their perception of self.
The purpose of the mask is to portray to your peers, family, friends, the world that you are "normal". Guess what I've learned... no one is normal! There is no such thing. We all have our individual struggles, pain, regrets, secrets and because of that most people wear a mask. I think once we realize this fact, it lessens some of the pressure we put on ourselves; which then enables us to work on improving the inside so that it can match what we portray on the outside.
We all make mistakes. I know I have made my fair share. Anyone who says they haven't, is either a a terrible liar or is severely delusional. Sometimes mistakes can yield consequences that are unbearable, and sometimes we get away virtually unscathed. However, the most important thing about mistakes is that we can learn from them, if we are willing. As I withstand the consequences of a mistake I made some nine years ago, I am forced to look inward and analyze myself. I am learning to look back and see the "me" back then which I couldn't see at that time. It is quite interesting all that I've learned. It is making me a much better person. I am learning to accept the fact that I am largely responsible for the bumps and bruises incurred on my journey thus far. Whether by omission or commission it is I who has formed the path of my journey.The beautiful thing is that my journey is far from over! So I will stand tall and brave my consequences; all the while, learning and improving so that the remainder of my journey is filled with beautiful memories far exceeding my previous expectations!
Women in particular are expected to carry considerable emotional load, some of us are in a bad mood so often we may not realize it could be a bigger problem. Thankfully AndreaRevealed will remove much of the stigma associated with depression. It is very possible to live a life of purpose and quality.